damn pissed with this stupid com..
finally gt to play maple.. and then it shut down.. god, what on earth is happening??
nth in this world seems to like me being happy.. pagipagi dah kene marah coz, my mom saya i dah tak ingat nak balik.. juz coz i stayed at my cuz hs till ard 11+.. suppose to go in the mrning.. she expects me to what wake up at 7 then straight away go bath and balek.. macam tak appreciate mama ita's effort of helping her buy my books.. mcm u know what ungrateful like that.. just go out not even saying goodbye.. still seha wanted to follow me home to find her phone.. till now tak jumper.. sry if im mixing this post with malay.. just that im soo damn pissed off..
at least i git a "new" bag with kak aifaa give to me.. :D happy for that..
just  gt to know this morning that i need to go to sch for form collecting.. collect what form also idk.. always the last to know abt info.. haish maybe it is just my luck.. just nw i just did some reflection in the toilet.. lols.. that right.. in the toilet!! just thinking abt all the promises i made that i did not even live up to it..

i would like sincerely to apologise to people who i hurt or let's say let down due to my attitude.. the promises that i made and did not try to live up to it, i will from now onwards to at least try my best to do it.. a very sincere sry to ms sha if she is reading this.. for i knw she is the person i most let down in sch..
seriously, im very sincerely sry.. my life really sucks.. and i really wanted to do my best but it  just that, i dont really think i can.. to more i think abt it the more i feel like i dont care abt it.. haish.. i dont know what lies for me in the future. maybe it could be worst than this or even better, which i hope so.. so i really need the support from all the people out there that i really cares and matter to me soo much.. thanks for understanding me. i really cant find myself.. cant face the world right now. cant even face my own fear.. it feels as if my life is only surrounds me at my house.. im not even feeling that im a human right now.. i feel that im just a burden that everyone i care need to carry.. therefore im sincerely sorry for what i did.. promise to be better.. i hope i can live to that promise i just made.. idk whats happeninng to me.. seriously.. since secondary sch.. the whole me change.. noone knw in secondary sch knew thw old me.. as i've change.. i really miss the old me back.. the me whom everyone like.. the me whom everyone looks up to..

so i really hope u guys out there, pls stay out of the life i just created. be ur ownself. the selfless self of urself the one everyone hope to see. dont be like me..

Labels: hoping for a better life..