lols..
i just dk how to say this but, seriously sam if you really think your family is a broken family, u'll never ever going to realized this.. maybe somebody's life and family is more broken than you..

to tell you the truth, and to all of my other fwens..
my life is really isn't what you think..
at least you gt a father to love sam. but me??
i dont even know whether to love my dad whom for my whole life haven take care of me.. got to see him only once in a while when i went back to malaysia.. my life sucks.. i nvr really tasted the love of a father.. it rather makes me jealous seeing people wif father to love and receiving a love of a father..

im an adopted child which my aunt adopt from her brother..
actually, my grandma who ask for me for my aunt..
i was taken after a few days i was born.
taken care by my aunt(my mom) and my grandma..
i really appreciate them for this as i know that i get a better life here rather than my siblings back there..
i really appreciate my mom for taking care of me.. but seriously, deep down my heart, i really long for a love of a father.. however i stilllove my mom.. really.. more than anything.. i rather die than see her suffering..

sometimes, i just feel lonely being alone at home..
nooone to talk to. only my maid.. talking to my grandma just makes me mad..
sometimes she scold me, tells me that she will send me back to malaysia when i fight back to her.. as if i want to be here..
sometimes after fighting with her, i thought that probably if im back there, will my life be better??

so now dont you dare say that you have a broken family sam..
at least u gt a dad to love.. or even a love of a dad.. me??
i just.. idk.. maybe i do have a dad to love but... idk..

thinking of these just makes me sad.. i just want to apologised to people who i lied to abt my family background but for now, i love my life here.. maybe, after this sam, u'll find urself better.. just want to see u change ur attitude.. god.. this thing stinks!

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